goodbye clifton ta dou.
i is so sudden. life seems so fragile and unpredictable to me now.
when i received the sms in the morning 1am...
i was sleeping. i totally KOed after main comm retreat the night before at my house.
i thought i was dreaming when i saw the sms sent by kimbo in the morning saying
Clifton ta dou passed away in Brunei yesterday due to exhaustion during army training.
i thought she was joking.
it awakened me when i get to know that she wasn't joking.
i received partner kaiwen sms too. then the whole day, i received many calls and sms.
i was rushing to work & i have to hold back my tears whole day.
i don't know what to say & to react. i just wanted my SIP to end fast today.
i read msn nicks, blogs, livejournals, and i even went through all the picts we have.
on top of that,
my lovely maybelle's grandpa just passed away this morning. she was so depressed after so much things happened since the month of MAY.
even though i know her grandpa was really very sick.
but after i received clifton's news.
i really have no idea how to console her because i can't even control my feelings.
at night, after work, i went home.
i found out my chinchilla, cutie pie. the cutest chinchilla among all has also past away.he was still fine in the morning. hyper as usual. jumping and eating like there's no tomorrow.
at night, he just lied there in his cage. lifeless.
i wanted to tear but i can't because i'm at stupid SIP!!!
today really made me feel that life is so fragile.
so it really make me treasure every single one of my friends.
who knows what will happen tomorrow or the next moment.
I treasure my family. my friends. and every moment i had together with them.
to Clifton ta dou ♥ ,
i remembered when we are in zilra. you are always afraid that you will not be a good FA.
but the truth is,
you & terence have made zilra what it is today.
we still have outings that other empires don't know.
we have supportive freshies who became many student leaders in TP now.
we have been like
ONE BIG FAMILY.
i remembered you & terence once said before:
Once a GL, forever a GL.
that has really motivated me to be GL for all three years in TP.
you gave me the chance to be a sub-empire head.
and that experienced let me learned how to be a GL and many other things. and in which helped me to be able to guide this year's GLs.
you encouraged me to run for elections last year which really never make me regret.
& your words have been aways my motivations to work for the better.
even this year elections, you encouraged me to work harder for BSC \
& you still fooled around with me during the election results day.
& that is the last day I will ever see you again :'(since after serene's birthday, you always tell me ask you go outings,
but everytime you are not free.
you still said that you will come for the next outing and now....
i really hope you can come for the outings..but...
i will not forget your words.
& i will work harder to really help make TP a better place.
you will always be the best FA. best bro to have.
i will not forget the moments we had together. the fun we had.
the crying sessions after we lost for the whole FO. the bond you created for zilra.
May you rest in peace & you will always be remembered.
Lastly, this is the "poem" we always gave you:
大头,大头,
下雨不愁。
Zilra 有雨伞,
Clifton 有大头。
And to Maybelle ♥ ,
girl arh..i know this 2 months have been tough for you and all the girls.
i really hope we can all get through all these soon and get back to our happy life.
sometimes, some things are meant to happen.
we grew from all the experience we have. so now we have to move on.
your grandpa will want you to move on and stay happy.
you will always have us with you. & you knows it.
hope your family will 节哀顺便.
And lastly to Everyone ♥,thanks peeps who are always out there for us.
to all the peeps who are depressed over the news, i believed he doesn't want us to be depressed over this for too long.
he hopes that we can move on.
so we should place him in our hearts forever.
bless him with all we have.
& move on to bring more joy to the friends around us.
to all, life is unpredictable and fragile. so treasure your family and friends.