damn not motivated to work in office. one word: SIANZZZZZZZ

yesterday attended Adventure Club's (TPAC) AGM.
as usual i was late due to SIP again!!!
i cabbed down because the AGM starts at 6.45pm & yet 6.30pm i still at office.

on the way to school, there is COCKROACH on the cab!
damn scary. i moved from the left to the right of the taxi.
at first, i don't want to tell the driver.
but the cockroach went overboard & climb towards me!
i just told the taxi driver & use my slipper to SMACK IT!
but the cockroach don't die...
i keep watching at it to make sure it doesn't climb to me!
& due to traffic jam, i am stuck on the cab with the cockroach for damn long!

then when i reached fountain, AGM just started.
OMG!!!
got SPIDER!!!
sunny & yanti not scare of spiders
& they kept playing. OMG!!! XD
throughout AGM, i keep looking at the spider to make sure it doesn't jump on me.
stupid sunny keep scaring me!

after the AGM, i went TM with claudine to find farhan, gracie & desmond.
as usual, we went to the open plaza.
baby cindy came for awhile too.
we talked about our love life.
i think mine was the most interesting because they keep listening.
even though i don't have love life, but i got crush life.
& those are enough to interest them. haha. =D

i think i really grew up alot this year.
i start looking things at alot different views.
i treasure life, family & friends more.
& many many more

OMG! i have lots of pictures have not upload & send & edit.

ok got to run to do all those =)

i is so sudden. life seems so fragile and unpredictable to me now.

when i received the sms in the morning 1am...
i was sleeping. i totally KOed after main comm retreat the night before at my house.
i thought i was dreaming when i saw the sms sent by kimbo in the morning saying
Clifton ta dou passed away in Brunei yesterday due to exhaustion during army training.
i thought she was joking.
it awakened me when i get to know that she wasn't joking.
i received partner kaiwen sms too. then the whole day, i received many calls and sms.
i was rushing to work & i have to hold back my tears whole day.
i don't know what to say & to react. i just wanted my SIP to end fast today.
i read msn nicks, blogs, livejournals, and i even went through all the picts we have.

on top of that,
my lovely maybelle's grandpa just passed away this morning.
she was so depressed after so much things happened since the month of MAY.
even though i know her grandpa was really very sick.
but after i received clifton's news.
i really have no idea how to console her because i can't even control my feelings.

at night, after work, i went home.
i found out my chinchilla, cutie pie. the cutest chinchilla among all has also past away.
he was still fine in the morning. hyper as usual. jumping and eating like there's no tomorrow.
at night, he just lied there in his cage. lifeless.

i wanted to tear but i can't because i'm at stupid SIP!!!
today really made me feel that life is so fragile.
so it really make me treasure every single one of my friends.
who knows what will happen tomorrow or the next moment.
I treasure my family. my friends. and every moment i had together with them.


to Clifton ta dou ♥ ,
i remembered when we are in zilra. you are always afraid that you will not be a good FA.
but the truth is,
you & terence have made zilra what it is today.
we still have outings that other empires don't know.
we have supportive freshies who became many student leaders in TP now.
we have been like ONE BIG FAMILY.

i remembered you & terence once said before:
Once a GL, forever a GL.
that has really motivated me to be GL for all three years in TP.
you gave me the chance to be a sub-empire head.
and that experienced let me learned how to be a GL and many other things. and in which helped me to be able to guide this year's GLs.

you encouraged me to run for elections last year which really never make me regret.
& your words have been aways my motivations to work for the better.
even this year elections, you encouraged me to work harder for BSC \
& you still fooled around with me during the election results day.
& that is the last day I will ever see you again :'(

since after serene's birthday, you always tell me ask you go outings,
but everytime you are not free.
you still said that you will come for the next outing and now....
i really hope you can come for the outings..but...

i will not forget your words.
& i will work harder to really help make TP a better place.
you will always be the best FA. best bro to have.
i will not forget the moments we had together. the fun we had.
the crying sessions after we lost for the whole FO. the bond you created for zilra.
May you rest in peace & you will always be remembered.

Lastly, this is the "poem" we always gave you:
大头，大头，
下雨不愁。
Zilra 有雨伞，
Clifton 有大头。





And to Maybelle ♥ ,
girl arh..i know this 2 months have been tough for you and all the girls.
i really hope we can all get through all these soon and get back to our happy life.
sometimes, some things are meant to happen.
we grew from all the experience we have. so now we have to move on.
your grandpa will want you to move on and stay happy.
you will always have us with you. & you knows it.
hope your family will 节哀顺便.

And lastly to Everyone ♥,
thanks peeps who are always out there for us.
to all the peeps who are depressed over the news, i believed he doesn't want us to be depressed over this for too long.
he hopes that we can move on.
so we should place him in our hearts forever.
bless him with all we have.
& move on to bring more joy to the friends around us.
to all, life is unpredictable and fragile. so treasure your family and friends.

Today is our very first Main Comm Retreat @ Sentosa! We intended to roam the whole sentosa and go for Lugeeee!!!! after that steamboat at My House and of course StayOver!!! yeah :)

But sadly since I am posting this post means I am stuck at SIP :(....but I will be joining them for dinner at my house!!!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JANICE!!!

Today, I met janice, grace, becca, serena and chang yong 5pm at National Library. They went KTV first.

We went to the MINDS CAFE.We ordered the 6 players package one. So we ordered:
3 munchies - fried chicken, small pizza and pototo wedges
2 crackers - spicy nachos and bbq potato chips
6 drinks - Sparkling Mango(graciie), Bubbleberry (janice), Ice Honey cameldine (serena), Mocha float(chang yong), Viennese Vanilla Float(becca) and Earl Grey Float (me !! i saw wrongly and I pronounced as Early Grey :X)
2 hours of gaming time

So we played UglyDoll, Jungle Spree, Dumbtoo, First Hand and Jenga (Truth or Dare). We were so crazy in there.

The things and forfeit we did really make us laugh our heads off.
1. Stupid reactions in Jungle Spree and First Hand
2. Chang Yong and Janice acted as traffic police
3. Janice asking another table of customers to sing birthday songs for her w/o saying "happy birthday"
4. Chang Yong dancing ballet and shouting "I love Swan Lake".
5. Blowing potatochips off weng's(by me), serena's(by janice) and grace's(by becca)stomach
6. Dancing mass dance with weng around the whole cafe
7. Walking with the block on my head around the room
8. and many more....

After all, we went to Haji Lane to find pub. End up we stopped at the walls to camwhore for around 30 minutes before we walked weng to bugis mrt and we took cab to selegie pub - The Crew House.


We ordered lychee martini for janice and a jar of coke jim beam for the rest of us. We played dices and chinaman that made janice abit drunk. But we played till everyone must drink for almost all the round. ChangYong and Serena sang their songs too.

English translation:

"It is all about how you live your life and not how you are going to die."

Case 1: Emotion Roller Coaster before we decided to run.

At Ice Cube, me and maybelle decided to run and the rest are not sure. So we spoke on Sunday again on the phone. After much discussion, we decided to run. So we put on our blog wtih the idea:

WE(maybelle) HAVE(Liyi) OFFICIALLY(Lou) DECIDED(Jia Min) TO (Joyce) RUN!!(Jo-an)

with linkage to each other's blog. However, after 1 hour, Joyce and Jiamin decide not to run. My heart sank like hell. So we went through the struggle once again. We took down the post from our blogs and on the last day of nomination, me, Mayblle, Jo-an, Jia min & Lou decided to run and Joyce stood firm of not running.

Case 2: Left out due to SIP (sad..)

The girls took pictures in school after I submitted the nomination form and went back office. So I decided to take a picture the next day before the elections briefing. Which means sneak out of office at 5pm (when i end work at 6.30). However, the next day, all of them finished their poster when I have not took my picture. So I tried to rush. But along the way, I thought of how much I missed all the fun with the girls in school and now I cant enjoy it because I am on SIP and they will be on SIP when I come back, I just broke down at the stairway with Grace.

Jia Min i really never blame you. Loves ok...

Case 3: Printing of Posters (Stressed Up...)

After the briefing, we knew that copyland opposite school is packed and the uncle this year smart, he closed at 8pm. (He chionged for us last year till 4am). So we decided to try those printing shop at SMU area there since we thought that there is NAFA students so the printing shops will close later. But we are wrong. We tried peace centre, they are closed too. Until we found this printing supplier. He is willing to print for us early the next morning and we collect at 8am. And as long we send in before 6am, he is able to help us print. We are so lucky and it is printed on the best quality and is much cheaper than school.

Case 4: Putting up of Posters (Lost...)

We reached school at 8.30am and Jiamin has queued up since 7.30am at Xerox for us to print our A2 Posters. As we reached, Jia min need to go for lessons. So I took over at Xerox to wait for our posters. Lou & Jo-an went to book the places where we want to put our posters. Maybelle went to SAA to get our posters chopped. I felt that we are DAMN UNITED can. We know what each other is doing and we have 100% trust in each other. And we had our own place to put up the posters not worrying whether others will prioritize their posters..and we completed like at 12 noon...Edwin and us all felt lost because we took like 2 days to put up posters last year which is 4 times longer than we took this year...

Case 5: Release of results (disappointed...)

The results of my votes are unexpectedly low..I mean it dropped like 60+ votes...and all my girls got more than 200+..and I started to suspect whether do I have friends..except for the girls..and it made me think that i am so not significant for so many of my friends...many told me because my whole course is at SIP...but it will not affect so much in the votes because this year I have 1 more empire..this year is Zilra + Accion and I got SLs too...it disappoint me alot..and some bloody idiot made my blood boil by saying sarcastic words..I mean I have sent our emails to accion and zilra..I sent out emails to SLs too..and that's what I've got..

Girls..I have never blamed you all! Trust me ok!! There is someone out there who really made my blood boils!!!

Case 6: Unfairness treatment from parents (so not fair...)

As my close friends know, my weekends are normally spent to do housework. It is a responsibility to help the family that's why I never grumble. But these whole month, my sis has been working on weekends and on the days that need to do housework. So I have been doing most of the housework..and my parents never say a single word.

Last month, when I just skipped 2 weeks of housework..my parents just scolded me and what the hell...sis skipped 1 mth and you all did not say a single thing..I just skipped 2 weeks and you all scold..it's so not fair..It always happens. My parents are always complaining i am not contributing to the family when everytime I do they just take it for granted. They only see what my sis contributed.

Case 7: Everyday scolding from mom (blood boils...)

My mom have been scolding me everyday for all the small things..like when I get home I never go bathe immediately, I never take breakfast, I never do finish housework before she get home. These type of things can just say what, no need scold one mah! And today, I just said I need to go out earlier because I meeting farhan they all at AMK hub before I go back CCHMS for NPCC POP. So just scolded me and she got so flared up that she said she is going work tomorrow instead of staying home. WTBBQ!! So after brunch I decided that I not meeting Farhan they all. She got angry again. I never tell her that I canceled my appointment because she not happy. My dad told her on behalf of me.

Case 8: HIM (unable to let go...)

I thought I gave up my feelings for him. I told everyone I don't want him already. But it is just so difficult to let go. I envied those who at least experienced the happy and sweet moments before. I have never experienced it with him before and I have to let go. I think without knowing he had feeling for me before, I will be able to let go easier. But this information just kept running through my head once a while when I see couples around. I am now trying my best to let go. Let time fade the feeling away.

On a lighter note...today is my cadets' Passing-Out-Parade...

damn not motivated to work in office. one word: SIANZZZZZZZ

yesterday attended Adventure Club's (TPAC) AGM.
as usual i was late due to SIP again!!!
i cabbed down because the AGM starts at 6.45pm & yet 6.30pm i still at office.

on the way to school, there is COCKROACH on the cab!
damn scary. i moved from the left to the right of the taxi.
at first, i don't want to tell the driver.
but the cockroach went overboard & climb towards me!
i just told the taxi driver & use my slipper to SMACK IT!
but the cockroach don't die...
i keep watching at it to make sure it doesn't climb to me!
& due to traffic jam, i am stuck on the cab with the cockroach for damn long!

then when i reached fountain, AGM just started.
OMG!!!
got SPIDER!!!
sunny & yanti not scare of spiders
& they kept playing. OMG!!! XD
throughout AGM, i keep looking at the spider to make sure it doesn't jump on me.
stupid sunny keep scaring me!

after the AGM, i went TM with claudine to find farhan, gracie & desmond.
as usual, we went to the open plaza.
baby cindy came for awhile too.
we talked about our love life.
i think mine was the most interesting because they keep listening.
even though i don't have love life, but i got crush life.
& those are enough to interest them. haha. =D

i think i really grew up alot this year.
i start looking things at alot different views.
i treasure life, family & friends more.
& many many more

OMG! i have lots of pictures have not upload & send & edit.

ok got to run to do all those =)

i is so sudden. life seems so fragile and unpredictable to me now.

when i received the sms in the morning 1am...
i was sleeping. i totally KOed after main comm retreat the night before at my house.
i thought i was dreaming when i saw the sms sent by kimbo in the morning saying
Clifton ta dou passed away in Brunei yesterday due to exhaustion during army training.
i thought she was joking.
it awakened me when i get to know that she wasn't joking.
i received partner kaiwen sms too. then the whole day, i received many calls and sms.
i was rushing to work & i have to hold back my tears whole day.
i don't know what to say & to react. i just wanted my SIP to end fast today.
i read msn nicks, blogs, livejournals, and i even went through all the picts we have.

on top of that,
my lovely maybelle's grandpa just passed away this morning.
she was so depressed after so much things happened since the month of MAY.
even though i know her grandpa was really very sick.
but after i received clifton's news.
i really have no idea how to console her because i can't even control my feelings.

at night, after work, i went home.
i found out my chinchilla, cutie pie. the cutest chinchilla among all has also past away.
he was still fine in the morning. hyper as usual. jumping and eating like there's no tomorrow.
at night, he just lied there in his cage. lifeless.

i wanted to tear but i can't because i'm at stupid SIP!!!
today really made me feel that life is so fragile.
so it really make me treasure every single one of my friends.
who knows what will happen tomorrow or the next moment.
I treasure my family. my friends. and every moment i had together with them.


to Clifton ta dou ♥ ,
i remembered when we are in zilra. you are always afraid that you will not be a good FA.
but the truth is,
you & terence have made zilra what it is today.
we still have outings that other empires don't know.
we have supportive freshies who became many student leaders in TP now.
we have been like ONE BIG FAMILY.

i remembered you & terence once said before:
Once a GL, forever a GL.
that has really motivated me to be GL for all three years in TP.
you gave me the chance to be a sub-empire head.
and that experienced let me learned how to be a GL and many other things. and in which helped me to be able to guide this year's GLs.

you encouraged me to run for elections last year which really never make me regret.
& your words have been aways my motivations to work for the better.
even this year elections, you encouraged me to work harder for BSC \
& you still fooled around with me during the election results day.
& that is the last day I will ever see you again :'(

since after serene's birthday, you always tell me ask you go outings,
but everytime you are not free.
you still said that you will come for the next outing and now....
i really hope you can come for the outings..but...

i will not forget your words.
& i will work harder to really help make TP a better place.
you will always be the best FA. best bro to have.
i will not forget the moments we had together. the fun we had.
the crying sessions after we lost for the whole FO. the bond you created for zilra.
May you rest in peace & you will always be remembered.

Lastly, this is the "poem" we always gave you:
大头，大头，
下雨不愁。
Zilra 有雨伞，
Clifton 有大头。





And to Maybelle ♥ ,
girl arh..i know this 2 months have been tough for you and all the girls.
i really hope we can all get through all these soon and get back to our happy life.
sometimes, some things are meant to happen.
we grew from all the experience we have. so now we have to move on.
your grandpa will want you to move on and stay happy.
you will always have us with you. & you knows it.
hope your family will 节哀顺便.

And lastly to Everyone ♥,
thanks peeps who are always out there for us.
to all the peeps who are depressed over the news, i believed he doesn't want us to be depressed over this for too long.
he hopes that we can move on.
so we should place him in our hearts forever.
bless him with all we have.
& move on to bring more joy to the friends around us.
to all, life is unpredictable and fragile. so treasure your family and friends.

Today is our very first Main Comm Retreat @ Sentosa! We intended to roam the whole sentosa and go for Lugeeee!!!! after that steamboat at My House and of course StayOver!!! yeah :)

But sadly since I am posting this post means I am stuck at SIP :(....but I will be joining them for dinner at my house!!!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JANICE!!!

Today, I met janice, grace, becca, serena and chang yong 5pm at National Library. They went KTV first.

We went to the MINDS CAFE.We ordered the 6 players package one. So we ordered:
3 munchies - fried chicken, small pizza and pototo wedges
2 crackers - spicy nachos and bbq potato chips
6 drinks - Sparkling Mango(graciie), Bubbleberry (janice), Ice Honey cameldine (serena), Mocha float(chang yong), Viennese Vanilla Float(becca) and Earl Grey Float (me !! i saw wrongly and I pronounced as Early Grey :X)
2 hours of gaming time

So we played UglyDoll, Jungle Spree, Dumbtoo, First Hand and Jenga (Truth or Dare). We were so crazy in there.

The things and forfeit we did really make us laugh our heads off.
1. Stupid reactions in Jungle Spree and First Hand
2. Chang Yong and Janice acted as traffic police
3. Janice asking another table of customers to sing birthday songs for her w/o saying "happy birthday"
4. Chang Yong dancing ballet and shouting "I love Swan Lake".
5. Blowing potatochips off weng's(by me), serena's(by janice) and grace's(by becca)stomach
6. Dancing mass dance with weng around the whole cafe
7. Walking with the block on my head around the room
8. and many more....

After all, we went to Haji Lane to find pub. End up we stopped at the walls to camwhore for around 30 minutes before we walked weng to bugis mrt and we took cab to selegie pub - The Crew House.


We ordered lychee martini for janice and a jar of coke jim beam for the rest of us. We played dices and chinaman that made janice abit drunk. But we played till everyone must drink for almost all the round. ChangYong and Serena sang their songs too.

English translation:

"It is all about how you live your life and not how you are going to die."

Case 1: Emotion Roller Coaster before we decided to run.

At Ice Cube, me and maybelle decided to run and the rest are not sure. So we spoke on Sunday again on the phone. After much discussion, we decided to run. So we put on our blog wtih the idea:

WE(maybelle) HAVE(Liyi) OFFICIALLY(Lou) DECIDED(Jia Min) TO (Joyce) RUN!!(Jo-an)

with linkage to each other's blog. However, after 1 hour, Joyce and Jiamin decide not to run. My heart sank like hell. So we went through the struggle once again. We took down the post from our blogs and on the last day of nomination, me, Mayblle, Jo-an, Jia min & Lou decided to run and Joyce stood firm of not running.

Case 2: Left out due to SIP (sad..)

The girls took pictures in school after I submitted the nomination form and went back office. So I decided to take a picture the next day before the elections briefing. Which means sneak out of office at 5pm (when i end work at 6.30). However, the next day, all of them finished their poster when I have not took my picture. So I tried to rush. But along the way, I thought of how much I missed all the fun with the girls in school and now I cant enjoy it because I am on SIP and they will be on SIP when I come back, I just broke down at the stairway with Grace.

Jia Min i really never blame you. Loves ok...

Case 3: Printing of Posters (Stressed Up...)

After the briefing, we knew that copyland opposite school is packed and the uncle this year smart, he closed at 8pm. (He chionged for us last year till 4am). So we decided to try those printing shop at SMU area there since we thought that there is NAFA students so the printing shops will close later. But we are wrong. We tried peace centre, they are closed too. Until we found this printing supplier. He is willing to print for us early the next morning and we collect at 8am. And as long we send in before 6am, he is able to help us print. We are so lucky and it is printed on the best quality and is much cheaper than school.

Case 4: Putting up of Posters (Lost...)

We reached school at 8.30am and Jiamin has queued up since 7.30am at Xerox for us to print our A2 Posters. As we reached, Jia min need to go for lessons. So I took over at Xerox to wait for our posters. Lou & Jo-an went to book the places where we want to put our posters. Maybelle went to SAA to get our posters chopped. I felt that we are DAMN UNITED can. We know what each other is doing and we have 100% trust in each other. And we had our own place to put up the posters not worrying whether others will prioritize their posters..and we completed like at 12 noon...Edwin and us all felt lost because we took like 2 days to put up posters last year which is 4 times longer than we took this year...

Case 5: Release of results (disappointed...)

The results of my votes are unexpectedly low..I mean it dropped like 60+ votes...and all my girls got more than 200+..and I started to suspect whether do I have friends..except for the girls..and it made me think that i am so not significant for so many of my friends...many told me because my whole course is at SIP...but it will not affect so much in the votes because this year I have 1 more empire..this year is Zilra + Accion and I got SLs too...it disappoint me alot..and some bloody idiot made my blood boil by saying sarcastic words..I mean I have sent our emails to accion and zilra..I sent out emails to SLs too..and that's what I've got..

Girls..I have never blamed you all! Trust me ok!! There is someone out there who really made my blood boils!!!

Case 6: Unfairness treatment from parents (so not fair...)

As my close friends know, my weekends are normally spent to do housework. It is a responsibility to help the family that's why I never grumble. But these whole month, my sis has been working on weekends and on the days that need to do housework. So I have been doing most of the housework..and my parents never say a single word.

Last month, when I just skipped 2 weeks of housework..my parents just scolded me and what the hell...sis skipped 1 mth and you all did not say a single thing..I just skipped 2 weeks and you all scold..it's so not fair..It always happens. My parents are always complaining i am not contributing to the family when everytime I do they just take it for granted. They only see what my sis contributed.

Case 7: Everyday scolding from mom (blood boils...)

My mom have been scolding me everyday for all the small things..like when I get home I never go bathe immediately, I never take breakfast, I never do finish housework before she get home. These type of things can just say what, no need scold one mah! And today, I just said I need to go out earlier because I meeting farhan they all at AMK hub before I go back CCHMS for NPCC POP. So just scolded me and she got so flared up that she said she is going work tomorrow instead of staying home. WTBBQ!! So after brunch I decided that I not meeting Farhan they all. She got angry again. I never tell her that I canceled my appointment because she not happy. My dad told her on behalf of me.

Case 8: HIM (unable to let go...)

I thought I gave up my feelings for him. I told everyone I don't want him already. But it is just so difficult to let go. I envied those who at least experienced the happy and sweet moments before. I have never experienced it with him before and I have to let go. I think without knowing he had feeling for me before, I will be able to let go easier. But this information just kept running through my head once a while when I see couples around. I am now trying my best to let go. Let time fade the feeling away.

On a lighter note...today is my cadets' Passing-Out-Parade...